Wishes Resigned
August 15, 2020, on losing a family member in the port explosion
Where is the doctor to Eternal Sunshine me
Sneak into my home and erase my memory
Where was the hero who would’ve saved us all
Must have flown right past us, watched the city fall
Where do people really go when they are gone for good
Why do we feel broken when we stand where they once stood
Where can my eyes wander to without seeing your face
Without cursing every missed chance for one final embrace
Knowing
November 8, 2020
Knowing is growing
But I don’t know
Dark Anniversary
August 4, 2021
Bright lights turned into memory
To mourn in peace, a luxury
Lily Forever
July 2022, on having to put down my 14-year-old cat
I wanna haunt this house with you
I’ve been here all alone all day
And I gotta say I’m feeling blue
Without you here, nothing’s okay
I’ll try to catch up with you soon
You have to promise me you’ll wait
I’m so excited to hold you (again)
And I promise I won’t be too late
Can’t wait to haunt this house with you
But I really wish you could have stayed
Been hoping for a sign from you
To tell me that you’re still okay
I know you were in so much pain
I saw it on your pretty face
But when I’m with you once again
I hope we haunt this fucking place
I hope we haunt this fucking place
I hope we haunt this fucking place
The Owls
September 16, 2022
No matter how fucked up things get
I know the owls will still come out
To hunt by the light of the full moon
Deciduous
January 2023, on losing a family member to cancer
One by one
We fall from our tree
Some still in our prime
Who may come
To fall next to me
When it is both our time
I Have Trouble Letting Go
May 2, 2023
To say that I have trouble letting go would be
The understatement of the century
Happiness
Like rings of smoke
Disappears
Sorrow nests
Inside my chest
For years and years
A Year Without Lily
June 21, 2023
When we first met, you were small and weak and dying
I was so scared to pick you up and take you home
On your last day, you were small and weak and dying
I wasn’t scared to pick you up and put you back down that one last time
I protected myself for years until I realized
That all I really wanted to do
Was protect you
But Who is the Dreamer
February 20, 2024
I row and row and row
As gently as I can
Down the stream I go
Wearily, wearily, wearily
And it seems as though
Life is but a nightmare
?
شَــقــائِـقْ
April 2024, on the arrival of Spring during the ongoing genocide
أرى الأرضَ من حولي تتكلمُ
وقـد نَـعِمَتْ بالحياةِ من جـديد
فواسَـتْ شـقـيـقـاتٍ في الحِدادِ
وأَنْـــبَــتَـتْ زهــرةً للـشـهـيــد
Martyr of Al-Sawwene
August 2025, on finally returning to the south after the martyrdom of a family member in the war
I was too scared to come back
But then I remembered
That this would be the last gift
I will ever receive from you
Balcony Thoughts
August 8, 2025
Tonight, the moon is full
And everything else is empty
